Jenny's Birthday

Today is Jenny's birthday. It is so hard to believe it has been almost 3 years. Other than the closure to the crime that we recieved from the death penalty verdict, I still find it hard to believe she is gone. I thought after this much time I would be more accepting of that fact. In reality I still have to tell myself she will never be here again - I have to THINK about it - I guess time will help. The violent way she died is still something I think about a lot also. Maybe it is sort of like a car accident - there is no way to say goodbye SO If you have a loved one that is dealing with a terrible disease like cancer or alzheimers - thank God everyday that they are with you as long as it is his will. I may be wrong, but I feel like it would be a little easier if we could have seen this coming. Still devastating and an incredibly cruel loss, but to just be there one minute and gone the next - good grief - that is hard. In a way there was nothing left unsaid - Jenny and I talked on the phone the Friday before she was killed. We were close - I knew she loved me and she knew I loved her. That is not really my point. My whole family knows that "you never know" when that last look, smile , talk, laugh etc will be. Try to remember that with your friends and family.